Heartbeats

Something magical has happen to me.. The Law of Attaction is real.. that i already knew..

But a heavenly conversation was a pure attraction to me.. and my life..
My feelings became clear.. and not everybody will like it.. But now i'm able to say what i want.. what i feel.. what i need..
And most of all.. what i'm going to do about that.. So, i have plan. I have a life. Nothing can stop me.

Crazy maybe for a 21 year old girl. But it's worth trying it. If i can't make it, i will definitely learn about my mistakes.

Thank you M.

wondering

So August 20, i had my statistics.. but i can't say if it went well or not.. i'm just going to wait till i get my results..

In the mean while.. my pictures from india arrived..

I miss India..

Magic

Long time no see.. that's what i thought when i saw her again.. goosebumps all over..my mind all set to her.. my world.. i'll call her P. Damn, i miss her... it's a strange feeling..

I leave her alone.. she doesn't want to know me anymore.. It's painfull but i can't do anything about it.. i have to let her go..

No pictures.. only memories..
But still everything she does is like magic to me..

P, if you ever read this..
I'm so sorry...

Can i make up for my bad behaviour?

Calculator

I've got myself a new calculator.. one that i suppose to bought myself 2 years ago. I finally know how to make the exercises.. and everything is just fine.

5 days to go.

Tomorrow is a beautiful day.. The day that my grandfather was born.. 97 years ago. Unfortunately he died at a blessed age.. a couple months before he hit the great 90.

I think he would be mad at me if he was still here and would know about my statistics..
My life actually kinda stopped when he died.. school didn't matter for me anymore.. the only thing that i wanted was to have my best friend back.. my grandfather..
So, now after 7 years i find it easier to give him his peace.. i still miss him though..

And so i went back to school.. and make the best of it.. well, sometimes.. because it's hard for me to go through life without your best friend.. that doesn't mean that i've got no best friends.. my best friends of my own age are the best.. but still, how can someone be more important than your own blood..
But i do know that my grandfather is happy together with my grandmother.. wherever they may roam..

Ok now that's enough on the emotional part.

Let's kick butt! euhm, i mean statistics.

Coffee Plunger

So, what's the best deal for a student?
For me it would be.. Lots of candy , lots of coffee and cookies.

So my statistics are going good.. 6 days left to D-day.

Wondering if i'm going to succeed? Well, let me give you some advice.. never wonder, never ponder.. but just wait and deal with the problems at the moment of arriving.

I went to the store and got myself a big bag of nice candy.. I'm ready to face my books again.. and probably later on some pain in my stomach..

it's a hardknock life..

Tell me what you don't like about yourself

I confess, i'm an addict.

Nip/tuck is my current drug.
Not that there is something special about the tv-show.. still it keeps me in bed..

But not today,

I began with my statistics. In about 10 days i have to take a test.. and it's important, i only have one chance and this is it.

So i'm all into statistics.. (and several other courses)

The need for me to be is strong and the opium is my study.. or so it has to be.
And if i can get some help from above i'll be thankful.