Going home

So i met some of my best friends back home and we went (as usual) to a lovely bar..

Where our friend Jose was waiting for us.. As you might know.. Jose is very special..

Just as the times before , Jose came down the stairs and the beautiful girl took me by the hand and together we had a tequila night.. we were not alone.. The strong man aka the lovely teddy-bear was also by our side.. but he wasn't in the mood for Jose.. He had his Ops-ale and together we where all very happy..

Untill.. You can already guess.. the morning after..

Jose stabbed me in the back.. with a headache !!

Allriiiight!

Radikal! (berlin)

totally not my style.. you know.. the way of seducing.. i don't think it was even seducing.. but someting happened !

But she is so totally my style :-)

What i mean? well, i think it's called troubles .

So i met this lovely girl.. (haha, no not again ;-) )

and euhmm.. strange things can happen... actually they do happen!

No further explanation. Maybe 2008 will bring me some joy and luck.. or peace..

Let's celebrate life.. let's celebrate party.. let's celebrate friendship.. let's celebrate..

one girl, so many choices.

While my arm is still in a cast, life just goes on. That's maybe also a good thing! But i'm realizing myself how needy your arm can be!

Anyway, it's been a while since i came here and put something on the blog.. don't know actually what to write.. i can write about my love.. and even wonder why i write about it.. because.. what is love? is love a choice? is it a gift? whatever.. no discussions today.. it's lazy sunday..

Shall i write about the future?

IF you're expecting anything from me.. come back later.. i'm not available today.. or tomorrow..

def. Wild ride!

Berlin: one of the 700 pictures..

So it was a wild ride last week.. it kinda sucked.. Well, not that my friends suck or something like that.. but it really wasn't my week.. Murphy was in the house.. and i believe he hasn't left the building yet..

Duvel-night was crazy.. and lokomotion was really exhausting.. but.. Friday was def. D-day!

My friends (see picture) had a surprise for me.. (One groovy picture for one groovy duvel couple!)

they took me out for a lovely dinner in Brussels.. and by going home there was a hell of a partycrasher.. because we where in a carcrash. It wasn't our fault.. but it was a nasty crash and we were all in shock.. some of us are still in shock i think.. (i can only speak for myself..)

I ended up with my arm in a cast.. yes my dear.. yet again this year. The same leg hurts again.. but in the end of it all.. i'm just happy that my friends aren't hurt.. because.. i'm not up to say goodbye to them..

Just let me hold them close to me and make sure that they won't get hurt by anything.. because i realised myself (yet again) that they are way to special for me..

Today there must be , closure..

Closure for the last week.. but also closure for a love that will always be there but not ment to be was.. And yes also closure for the girl i met. ( You can mess with me a lot.. but when i've reached my final boiling point.. love is over!! )

I love Berlin

previous post.. no control.. well, that week.. my control was out of reach.. and i met someone new.. It was a hell of a week back then but now come to think of it.. it was a really fun week!Later more info about the new-person..

It's been a while since i've post something on this blog.. but there is a reason.. simple.. I went to berlin!
yes! Berlin! Berlinette! Crazy history, crazy roommates and crazy berliner inmates :-)

700 pictures!

wauwwww...

I never thought that David Hasselhoff was so much fun!

We found a tape of him on the streets of berlin.. a bag full of tapes.. ready to go.. FREE!

Lots of fun and ofcourse we took lots and lots of tapes with us.. so there will be soon a tape party in our house!

Back to Belgium.. This week is going to be a wild ride.. Today we have duvel-night.. A belgian beer night! Tomorrow the newbie's of psychology are going down! And Thursday there's LokoMotion.. that means party everywhere!!

no control

Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air...

Breaking the silence

India is coming out.
Do you really think? Do you think that will ever happen? They need courage and a hell of support!


Go and take a look..

http://www.sangama.org

Green Velvet

Can i talk to you, comfort you?
Through time and stories, do they also leave you in pain?

Honestly, my pain is going slowly away.. because there is more in life then pain.. i feel loved, i feel joy and happiness.. en yes.. i feel you.


I care for you..

Let me tell you something about school..
It's kinda fun.. but strange..

It's not that i already know my entire classmates but i'm getting there.. you know.. a few words during the break.. and actually i really don't care.. but for example.. we have to do these projects.. and these are in group.. so guess how uncomfty it is if you don't know anyone..

My first project will be Andy warhol.. ( i hope so.. because i'm still alone in it.. , maybe for the better but it has to be done by 2, so no goal for me.. but hard times in being friendly are coming up.. ) I'm not saying that i'm not social.. but sometimes.. especially when you don't know the person you're always better off alone.. because otherwise you're depending on the other.. and you never know if he or she will make the deadline or something likewise.

Dear N

More than one year ago..
Time goes fast, i miss you..

I saw you yesterday.. all dressed up.. and it felt good.. being with you.. even it was for 5 min.

You're good looking and together we'll make it through.. even though there's nothing to go through..

But best friends like us need to reinvent eachother.. or maybe not..

Anyway.. you and me baby.. let's cruise :-)

red red wine

Let me go..
Let me dream..
Let me make my mistakes..
Take me on a trip.. take me away..

Some soundsystems do RocK!

Catch me in the night..

Make the fireflies go away..

Pretend to be and realise yourself that one day this is all a dream.

Hula hula Hawaï

I went shopping yesterday, nothing special.. just basic stuff.. you know.. stuff for your bedroom..sheets, pillows.. yes.. things that you need during your everlasting (8-hour) sleep.

Sure i didn't came home with only that.. also other stuff.. like candles.. a horse.. things you just cannot resist!

It was a special day.. yesterday.. though it began really stupid.. I had to go to school and it was really boring.. but thank god for her because we went shopping.. and i had a really good time..

so the afternoon was really fun.. and then on top of the bill.. the lost one sends me a message.. Losing my nerves.. trembling all over.. yes, indeed .. i went to her house.. and i saw her again.. those special eyes.. her way of making me calm in one second.. it all came back to me.. and i realised (again) what i've done.. and how i felt.. Tears came (and also a headache) but i didn't care.. because i was with her..

Today.. the day after..

How do i feel?
I feel free.. but scared.. happy but unfinished.. loved and misunderstood..



not untouchable...









To you and also you..

Tequila

Jose lives up there.. you know.. above the cafe..
He makes good drinks.. (says the boss)



Fill them up.. it's time for some tequila.. (says the beautiful girl)

The day after..

I say.. i think i have a headache..

friendship

How strange can it be? Sometimes you win some.. sometimes you loose some..
In just a couple of days i won new friends.. but also lost a friendship.
I try to take care of my friends.. i always want to make them happy.. i guess i failed.. but one thing gives me kinda security.. i know she'll be safe..

Let's talk about my 'new' friends..
They are so nice.. especially now.. because my leg is in a cast.. and they help me so good! They are not just friends.. but they are special.. they're not that ego-minded as the rest of the society and even not that conformed by any rules or something , they are just them, they have an opinion of they're own.. they are self-made in the way that only persons with true caracter can be. (please don't mind the spelling if there is something incorrect)

So, further.. i stopped my study psychology and i don't have any idea about what i want to do.. but i think the best thing for me now is just get a teacher degree and then worry what i'll do with that diploma.

In the meantime.. don't worry.. make someone happy..

Massive Attack

So wondering about last days stories? well, there are none!
Future planning?
Well, where should i start?
I want to go to France with my best friend but my father says njet and maybe it was too difficult anyway..
Saturday i'll be leaving on a weekend.. with some friends .. but no fun-weekend.. :-(
We'll be having discussions all weekend long about.. what we want for the psychology-students.. and how we are going to manage that.. Believe me, not that simple.

Tomorrow : Wednesday.. a good friend of mine will come over.. It's been a while since i've seen her.. but maybe it's logic because she's from Denmark.
I miss Denmark btw.
I've been there three times.. and i will always be ready to go a fourth time.

Thursday evening my friends will be arriving from India.. Though i miss India.. i don't know for sure if i've missed them.. (ofcourse.. this is a stupid joke)
I'll be glad when they will be back. One funny thing.. they forgot to call for their flight-confirmation.. but in the end of it all.. probably everything will be ok.

There will be an info-day on thursday for an art-study.. so i'm going to check it out..

Any other plans? Well, i have to manage some things for the Psychology issue..

Today?Tonight? Probably some studying because my last exam is tomorrow..
FINALLY!!!

Heartbeats

Something magical has happen to me.. The Law of Attaction is real.. that i already knew..

But a heavenly conversation was a pure attraction to me.. and my life..
My feelings became clear.. and not everybody will like it.. But now i'm able to say what i want.. what i feel.. what i need..
And most of all.. what i'm going to do about that.. So, i have plan. I have a life. Nothing can stop me.

Crazy maybe for a 21 year old girl. But it's worth trying it. If i can't make it, i will definitely learn about my mistakes.

Thank you M.

wondering

So August 20, i had my statistics.. but i can't say if it went well or not.. i'm just going to wait till i get my results..

In the mean while.. my pictures from india arrived..

I miss India..

Magic

Long time no see.. that's what i thought when i saw her again.. goosebumps all over..my mind all set to her.. my world.. i'll call her P. Damn, i miss her... it's a strange feeling..

I leave her alone.. she doesn't want to know me anymore.. It's painfull but i can't do anything about it.. i have to let her go..

No pictures.. only memories..
But still everything she does is like magic to me..

P, if you ever read this..
I'm so sorry...

Can i make up for my bad behaviour?

Calculator

I've got myself a new calculator.. one that i suppose to bought myself 2 years ago. I finally know how to make the exercises.. and everything is just fine.

5 days to go.

Tomorrow is a beautiful day.. The day that my grandfather was born.. 97 years ago. Unfortunately he died at a blessed age.. a couple months before he hit the great 90.

I think he would be mad at me if he was still here and would know about my statistics..
My life actually kinda stopped when he died.. school didn't matter for me anymore.. the only thing that i wanted was to have my best friend back.. my grandfather..
So, now after 7 years i find it easier to give him his peace.. i still miss him though..

And so i went back to school.. and make the best of it.. well, sometimes.. because it's hard for me to go through life without your best friend.. that doesn't mean that i've got no best friends.. my best friends of my own age are the best.. but still, how can someone be more important than your own blood..
But i do know that my grandfather is happy together with my grandmother.. wherever they may roam..

Ok now that's enough on the emotional part.

Let's kick butt! euhm, i mean statistics.

Coffee Plunger

So, what's the best deal for a student?
For me it would be.. Lots of candy , lots of coffee and cookies.

So my statistics are going good.. 6 days left to D-day.

Wondering if i'm going to succeed? Well, let me give you some advice.. never wonder, never ponder.. but just wait and deal with the problems at the moment of arriving.

I went to the store and got myself a big bag of nice candy.. I'm ready to face my books again.. and probably later on some pain in my stomach..

it's a hardknock life..

Tell me what you don't like about yourself

I confess, i'm an addict.

Nip/tuck is my current drug.
Not that there is something special about the tv-show.. still it keeps me in bed..

But not today,

I began with my statistics. In about 10 days i have to take a test.. and it's important, i only have one chance and this is it.

So i'm all into statistics.. (and several other courses)

The need for me to be is strong and the opium is my study.. or so it has to be.
And if i can get some help from above i'll be thankful.